Infinite Love with Kate
My self-healing journey, living with a facial difference and acknowledging I was drowning in my own darkness. Realizing everything I was doing in my past, wasn’t quite aligning with who I desired to be & feel, so I started changing the trajectory of my future by choosing to sit within & feel everything I was so scared to feel. I simply let go and surrendered to the process & trusted in myself & chose me!
Infinite Love with Kate
S5: Ep: 78 "The Rise of the Pisces: My Baddie Era"
Amidst the swirling chaos of 2025, a year tinged with urgency and anxiety, we invite you to pause and reflect. Imagine embracing this year as the "year of the Pisces," where cherishing and safeguarding our emotions becomes paramount. Join us as we confront the pervasive fear that shadows our daily lives, from rushed errands before a storm to the deeper societal tensions we all feel. Let's set aside political divides to focus on the pressing global issues that unite us, like the urgent need to end child abuse. We're challenging you to resist complacency and take a stand against the erosion of our rights, asserting that awareness and action are within our grasp.
Self-accountability is our beacon as we navigate the complexities of human interaction and the need for personal transformation. True change starts within each of us—it's about being better humans, owning our privilege, and choosing empathy over division. We'll share stories that illustrate these concepts, highlighting how even in stressful situations, our reactions define us. Embrace the journey of personal growth and transformation, where the balance of light and darkness within us can be harnessed for good. By focusing on self-improvement, health, and fitness, we can inspire and create a more compassionate and united society. Together, let’s move beyond fear and step into a transformative year ahead.
Disclaimer: This episode speaks about strong content that may difficult to hear plus contains adult language.
Welcome back to another episode of Infinite Love with Kate. Welcome to 2025, everyone, even though I know that last week the episode did air on New Year's Day, but we're actually, you know, one week into it and it's kind of a shit show. And where do I begin? Not so much in my life, but what's transpiring around it. What's going on in the world? Are we okay? Have you checked in with your neighbor? Because I don't know if everyone is okay.
Speaker 1:And I say this because the other day I had to run errands and before this polar snowpocalypse vortex, whatever you want to call it was coming our way in the Midwest, I wanted to make sure I got all was coming our way in the Midwest. I wanted to make sure I got all my errands out of the way. And it was different. The energy, the energy was wild. I was behind a couple cars waiting to park in a parking lot at Amazon and it was bananas, because I was getting hogged at, because clearly I'm blocking an entranceway, but nobody was there prior to it. People are just in a hurry, everyone's rushing. There's no kindness, there's no politeness, it's just madness. And you can feel that energy so deeply and, no matter which way I looked. It was as if I had to be the careful one. I had to go extra slow. I had to be the careful one. I had to go extra slow Because the way people were pulling in, pulling out of parking spots, it was every man for themselves. And I know it's more than just what's coming with the weather. It's just pretty much how 2024 ended and how 2025 began.
Speaker 1:Now listen, I know it's not the greatest way to start a year. However, you are in control. We are not supposed to be in control of everything, right, but we are in control of our feelings, of how we react, how we respond, how we choose to face the world. So if the world is dark and we choose to live in that darkness, then we are now mirroring that darkness, and that is what I'm seeing happening and transpiring all around us. And this goes with everyone. I mean not just strangers, but people I know, people I love. Everyone is literally masking or mirroring this fear, this anxiety, this facade of anticipation of doomsday.
Speaker 1:I guess you should say I'm just going to live my life afraid. If whatever happens happens. I can't control that, I'm not here to abide. I guess All my life I lived in fear, so I just worked really hard on getting out of that fear state of mind, that anxiety. So why am I going to jump right back into it? I'm not Call me naive, whatever. Sure, it's not mine and I'm going to stick with it. I told you that this year was my bad year and I know that last week I basically had a breakdown of emotion, but I was feeling it. That's where I'm at. I told you I won't hide, I won't run, I won't mask, I won't put on this facade for you of what I'm feeling. I am emotional and I can't be.
Speaker 1:2025 is the year of the Pisces and I claim it, I own it, it's mine and it also includes my feelings. I will never deny my feelings, but I will never abuse my feelings. I will never allow anyone out there to abuse my feelings, to mock them or to use them as abuse. You know who you are. Don't exist in my world. If you don't want to, but change your perspective, do the work yourself. Change for you, not for me, not for anyone. Change for you Unless that's who you really are, unless that's finally what the world gets to see the real you. And then it kind of aligns with what I've been saying all along so go with it, do the work, stop being so afraid of what's going to happen. You can be prepared, sure, but here's the thing.
Speaker 1:I saw a post, a friend of mine, a co-worker. They were talking about what is going on in other countries and unfortunately it's the abuse of children and I can't use the word rape. But Unfortunately it's the abuse of children and I can't use the word rape. But it's ugly, it's running vamping. And then I wanted to say something.
Speaker 1:But obviously you know that when you put something out there, you're going to get the rhetorics of politics oh, it's the left side, it's the right side, it's up and stuff. Can we just be human for one second? Can we remove all labels? I don't care if you're a Trump lover, I don't care if you're right-wing, left-wing, upside down, inside out, I don't care. That's not what we're talking about here. Neglected, being abused. And if you're going to say it's in another country, then you are naive yourself. You are Because wasn't there just this whole post of 70,000 men in the United States coming together on a group thread talking about how they're going to take over women and children?
Speaker 1:And yet everyone wants to say it's the right, it's the left. It's the up and down, but you don't want to center on the actual problem at hand. You want to ignore it. You'd rather run from it, mask it, blame somebody else, because it's easier than actually utilizing your voice and saying enough is enough. Enough.
Speaker 1:We are human. We have rights to our bodies. Whether you're a man or a woman or a child, we have rights. We don't come from a country such as the United States, with democracy, land of the free, and then, all of a sudden, you can't see that our rights are being taken away. You can't see that we are now becoming other countries that we're saying, whoo, at least it's not us, it is us. It will be us If we don't put a stop to it now. See something, say something, see something, do something. Enough is enough.
Speaker 1:If you've learned anything about what's been going on in the last year, two years, three years, ten years it's fine. It's time to stand up. It's time to utilize your voice. It's time to not be so afraid. Stand up for right, for human kindness, for love, for respect, even if you don't agree with that. I am on this platform and I don't agree with people who support Trump, but it doesn't mean I don't love you, it doesn't mean you can't be within my life, because you can. Just because we don't share the same beliefs doesn't mean we still can't be human, because in the end, the president doesn't make my choices I do. In the end, I live for my values and my morals and who I am and who I'm becoming, which is growth. What are you so afraid of that? You're so afraid to use your voice when you see something or hear something that is harmful to another human being. You may not respect trans or LGBTQ, but I am LGBTQ, so either respect me or walk away. That is fine. I'm not here to force you to be my friend or be in my life or to listen to this podcast, if you so choose. But remember that's your choice. That explains who you are. I am still here, loving. I'm still here, open and free. It's your choice that explains who you are. I am still here, loving. I am still here, open and free, utilizing my right to use my voice To say enough is enough of the hatred of the divide.
Speaker 1:I want to say why can't we get along? But this world is running on fear, and with fear comes separation and divide. You can't tell me that one man's going to change everything. You can't, because the only person that makes change is the person within yourself. If you can't make change for yourself, then you can reassure that you cannot make change for others and you cannot expect one man to make change. That man needs a lot of work with it. That man is built on a lot of lies which he outs himself publicly, and that's fine. That's his path, his journey. But you can't sit here and pretend that he doesn't, just like you. Can't sit here and pretend that you're not afraid, or that you're this or you're that.
Speaker 1:Look inside that mirror, look directly at that mirror. What is your reflection saying back to you? Who are you? And if you say you're a woman or a man of god, well for it. Whatever your faith is.
Speaker 1:Again, I'm not here to judge you on your faith. I am here to judge you on your character. Are you a good human to yourself and to others, to all races, to all genders? Are you a good person? That's all I care about. See, I look at people, I look at their souls, I look at who they are. I feel that immensely and I can take accountability for where I've failed in my life. But this is where I'm at now. See, I'm not here to look at your past. We all have our flaws, but we also have room to change. And if you still can't believe that, then you're telling me that you're not someone that believes in doing the work within. You're telling me that there's no hope in humanity, that it's every man for themselves and that we're all fucked. Or you do believe and you are willing to sit here and listen to this podcast episode and you're willing to listen to my voice and ask yourself who am I? What have I done in the past day, hour, minute, year, month, lifetime to make a change? What have I done for my fellow man, woman, brother, sister? Who do you want to be in 2025? 2025.
Speaker 1:We have drones, aliens underwater above us. We have people stuck in outer space. We have glitches in the matrix. We have corruption. We have us utilizing platforms, living in a content creator world, social media. We have idolization of people who have had enough, who end the lives of others. We have felonies in the way of where soon to be. We have global warming at an all-time high. We have separation, division. We have lost rights as women. We have war. We miss anything. We have people in the highest positions with billions of dollars in their own bed pockets just burning their soul away, and yet they could be doing something more positive to change the world. We have people that, instead of helping their fellow friend, they rather pull out a phone and videotape it. So who are we? Who are you?
Speaker 1:I just witnessed a video of a woman, a very white, privileged woman, and I can say that we, as white folk, are privileged, and you can't argue it any other way. You can either be grateful and utilize that platform, that identity, as something positive and constructive, or you can use it as a scapegoat, an abuse of power, and hurt others. There's only one or the other. But this white woman with her small children I could feel the pain. She was denied something.
Speaker 1:I don't know the whole story. She's at Southwest, she's trying to get on a flight. Something happened with her child not being able to have a surgery of some sort. You could feel the panic and you can also feel that fight or flight. She went flying. She was having an out-of-body experience, but it still doesn't give her the excuse of what she chose to do next. She was having reactions instead of responses At one point where I really felt her when I could feel it. I could hear her. I could hear her inner self and she said I need help. That was the panic that set off in her.
Speaker 1:Now, she couldn't utilize those words right in the beginning and it probably wouldn't have benefited her, but it didn't, because she utilized those when she was panicking, when she was already throwing her white privilege card down, talking about I was this or I was that, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, which then the lady walked away. And then, in that one moment, one defining moment of her life, she could have just owned it, took accountability and apologized for her having a reaction out of fear. She had a right to be afraid, she had a right to be upset, but she did not have a right to do this next thing, and that was now use her white privilege to spread heat against this beautiful black woman who was just trying to help. And now this version of her is out there for the world to see. But might do.
Speaker 1:Would we have seen this if social media wasn't so big? Everybody has that phone and you have a right to it. I'm not going to lie, I'm not gonna say no, but could you have helped de-escalate the situation? Again, we're human, not my problem, not my business. But it was your business when you took out the phone to videotape it because you wanted it to be for everyone else to see. You wanted it to be your business when you wanted your views to be up. Do you see where we get it wrong? Every single time we have that reaction. We have that response of it's not my place to get involved, but it's your place to pull out a phone, it's your place to seek attention yourself.
Speaker 1:Two wrongs don't make a right. And yet people still struggle with accountability. Do you know the only way I was able to change or transform? And again, I can already feel the judgment I'm not perfect, I'm still making a mistake. I still have feelings. Feel the judgment I'm not perfect, I'm still making a mistake. I still have feelings. I still have unresolved issues, some I don't even know about yet, some that are still surfacing, that take you by surprise. I own them. That's my accountability. But you know that I could not be where I'm at today, I could not be on this microphone looking at you confidently, without taking accountability for the hot mess that I was in my past, for my lies, my betrayal, my manipulation, all of it.
Speaker 1:In my past, I was a person. I was human, having human experiences. We all are. So, you see, I'm not judging you for having your human experience. I'm asking you, or mirroring to you, what are you going to do about it? What are you going to do to change this? What are you going to do to become more humane, filled with love and kindness and compassion? Because if you look at the world the way it is, and if it goes south, if it goes into World War III, if it goes into the fact that we're all a part of this war because you don't know what, if we go into the Great Depression, with inflation going up and prices and people not being able to afford things and people losing jobs, what is? Are you going to live in fear and walk around this world in fear, every man for themselves, or are you still going to choose love? Are you going to help out a fellow? Something to think about for 2025.
Speaker 1:I know for a while I was talking about how I'm unhurt, selfish of a journey, and that's for my own health, my own mental health and emotional stability and everything else. But it doesn't mean I'm not human. It doesn't mean I'm not built on love and kindness. It does not mean I won't give to others who are in need. I'm abundant in all areas of my life. Giving is literally a part of me, but to a point, to a point where it's no longer a part of me. When you abuse that, when you're willing to take and take and take, but you never pour back. See, that is the growth within me. Is I spy? I spy the energies that feed people. You see it all the time.
Speaker 1:Be true to who you are. You want to change your outer appearance. This is where I'm at right now. I put on weight. My body isn't aligned to how I feel. It's my accountability, but it's also something I'm learning to grow through and work through. But I can easily change my outer appearance just like that. However, I have to change within first, because if I can't embrace and accept all of this, then I shouldn't be changing my outer appearance, because the world can see right through that facade. So go ahead and you want to change your outer appearance and it doesn't match your inner and what you're doing or not doing. Especially if you're not doing either work, then you're very transparent. The world's going to get you. Your karma's coming for you and that I've learned over my journey.
Speaker 1:Any turn I took that was out of haste or ego. Karma was right there to teach me a whole new lesson. So that's why I kind of reflect and think about a lot of my choices. It's kind of why I move in silence a lot more and I also take accountability for when I'm having a moment. So last week when I aired, I was sobbing because I was coming from a place of hurt and I was done. I was done being someone's muse. I was done feeling this connection over and over and over, when, if they wanted to, they would have, but they never did.
Speaker 1:So again more lies come to surface. So I'm done and I'm not mad at them. I don't hate them. I love them. I love them eternally, forever. I just am done with our pants. I'm done chasing ghosts. I'm here changing for the better and, if anything, I think I just don't match or I don't align with their journey when one wants to do the work and the other doesn't.
Speaker 1:Your journeys separate and that's okay Doesn't mean I can't reunite at some point, but divine purpose and divine timing of universe and divine intervention of universe. The divine intervention of universe is what keeps us all apart or brings us all together, because universe, god, sees all. So that's where I'm at in life. That's where I'm at in 2025. Starting new projects, feeling good, working on my health, getting back into fitness, seeing several new doctors making moves is all I can say and loving every part of this journey, loving the choices I'm making, loving that I am using this platform for good, and that is to make a change in this world for the better.
Speaker 1:If so, tired of seeing the darkness, it's okay to have darkness in your life, hell. I chose to fall in love with my darkness and utilize it to become more of my light. My darkness is my power. It's my superpower. I don't use it for harm, I use it for good. That's the only difference. So let's stop dividing ourselves. Let's stop living in fear. Let's go within, do the work, and let's make a change as a collective. Stop waiting for other people to do the work. They're not doing it for you, hell. I know I was doing it for a long time for somebody else. It doesn't change them. The only way a person can change if they are willing to make a change for themselves is not be so reliant on others. So stop relying on the world to change. Change yourself so you can change the world. Have an amazing, beautiful, abundant day. Thank you for joining me on Infinite Love with Kate.